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{February 10, 2015}   Becoming Melissa

Being a M2F (male to female) transgender person is not easy. We suffer the effects of what society expects of us, and what our internal voice says. And the two sides don’t always match. For me, I feel like I’ve been “becoming Melissa” since birth. I thought, as I got older that I would not have the desire, but instead it has intensified. Now I’m ready to transition. To be female. Full time!


In Vegas, January 2015

Today is day 15 of my journey. My trans-birthday was January 27th. I enter a world of new firsts. Like today going to the doctor for the first time as a woman. We discussed how to proceed – starting with HRT (hormone replacement therapy). Blood was drawn so they can monitor my health as there are risks involved along with the benefits. If all goes as planned, I’ll have my first shot in 10 days. Then the waiting game begins. How long til I see breast development? Will my skin become softer? Can my narrow hips widen as the fat is redispersed around my body?

Although I’ve been mainly self employed for what seems like forever, I decided to put my name out there and find a job.  I had my first interview (via phone) with a company that, so far, appears to be a very good match to my strengths. If I get the job, it would require a move to sunny Southern California, which right now, sounds very appealing. How amazing it would be to walk through the door the first day, as a woman. My fingers are seriously crossed.

The hardest part of my transition is the notifying of family, friends and acquaintances. I’ve been dragging my feet. Scared of the unknown. But I did get a phone call from my child’s school this morning and they addressed me as ‘Melissa.”  It’s happening, but slowly. I think the hard part of notifying, is the tearing down of people’s perceptions of who you are. I’m still the same person, just a different look and I’d like to think, a softer/friendlier version. And I smell better too 🙂

I’ll be updating this blog often to let you know how my transition is going.


If you are transgender and never attended a transgender conference, you should!

They offer so much – like knowledge, friendship, acceptance and maybe more importantly, fun. If you are totally in the closet, then you “must” go to one. The feeling of wearing that special outfit to a dinner gala is an amazing one that you can’t miss out on.

Dancing at the Esprit Conference

Dancing at the Esprit Conference

I try to keep an updated list of the upcoming conferences/conventions and events at the following link
Transgender Conferences Calendar for 2015

Since I live in Washington State, I’m most familiar with our own Esprit Conference in Port Angeles. This week long conference is the perfect venue for both out of the closet transgender ladies and the newest of newbies, still in the closet. The vibe is very low key. Girls don’t come here to show off their breast size (except for Joy 🙂 ) . They come to interact and learn. The daytime features classes all week. Including topics on voice training, laser hair removal, how to chose the right wig, self defense and even doctors arrive that talk about hormones and the different feminization surgeries available. The night events include an eclectic mix of dancing, eating out, billiard tournament, a talent show and lastly, a wonderful ending gala party. The hotel has been hosting this event for years and they (and the city) love it when we arrive. If you are peeking outside the closet and scared to leave the safety of your house, just realize that everyone at the conference has had to deal with that feeling at some point, and plenty of people are there to hold your hand.

Have you been to a transgender conference? Respond to this article, and tell us about your experience.

{June 24, 2011}   The Face of Transgender

At birth, a doctor looks at our external genitalia and classifies us as one of two options, male or female. If male, you are treated a certain way immediately. Blue clothes. Trucks and cars for toys. Descriptive words are used like, handsome, tall, strong. If female, pink clothes, dresses, dolls, and words like beautiful and pretty. But what if you are transgender?

We all have masculine and feminine traits. Most males (assigned at birth) lean toward the masculine side. Most females (assigned at birth) lean toward the feminine side. If you are male and lean toward the female side, or part way, you are probably transgender. As I am. This is something that I constantly struggle with, because society has pushed me to the masculine side all my life.

So when an article caught my eye yesterday, I found myself feeling odd about it. I only spent a minute or two reading it, but as the day went on, I felt uneasy about the article. And a little upset.

The article was titled, Airline Allows Man in Women’s Panties to Fly.

I’m always amazed at how hurtful people can be, especially when not face to face, like the comment section below an article. Jabs like “I hope the airline had barf bags,” or “If that thing sat next to me. I’d Jump.” Wow! Would you really jump? These people don’t know this person. But based on the visual, he is diseased. An idiot. Crazy. Disgusting. Worthy of jumping off a plane. What else? You fill in the blank. Anything bad, you can insert it here. After thinking about it later in the day, I became upset that this person was the face of transgender. Our poster child. When the general public conjures up a visual of transgender people, or crossdressers, they see her. This is sad, and quite honestly pisses me off. First off, she is NOT the face of transgender. That’s not to say she isn’t transgender, but instead, she is not a good representation of what most transgender people look or act like. Her outfit would NOT be accepted at any transgender conference I have attended, unless she was pool side. But unfortunately the media doesn’t show all the transgender people who go on planes that dress “appropriately” because that is not a story anyone cares about.

While en femme, I have traveled on airplanes, taken long train trips, crossed the border into Canada and back. I try to blend in. It’s not about getting the stares. It’s about me feeling feminine, feeling female.

So, what is the face of transgender? Honestly, it’s me. It is Alyssa, Tiessa, Teri, Jia, Jackie, Denise, Alexii, Stephanie and many other people that I have had the pleasure to meet and now call my friends. Each one is unique. Has her our own style and personality. The face of transgender is not the person on the plane wearing panties and 4-inch heels. That is the stereotype that the media have given us.

Hello Crossdressers

It’s Spring! The cold weather has faded. The warm summer is right around the corner. A now the crossdressing conferences begin.

First off is the Esprit Conference in Port Angeles, Washington. This is fun week-long (May 16-23) event close to Seattle that draws over 100 CDs and SOs (significant other). This is my second year attending the event. I had a blast the first year. Met several friends that I have become very close to. Had a chance to take the ferry across to Victoria, BC and spend the day shopping. Watched the Nasty Habits (an all-tranny band) three times at local bars. As well as attending most all conference functions, including the talent show and Saturday Gala. I was a vendor at the event, displaying and selling most of my products at

Again this year, I will be at Esprit as a vendor, but new this year, I will be presenting a class – Breast Forms and Wigs 101. This class is being offered twice. Monday, May 17th 3:30-5:00 and again on Thursday May 20th 1:30-3:00. It is free to any conference attendees. I will be discussing the basics. How to choose the right length, sytle and color of a wig? Things to avoid, and things to look for in a wig. What is a wig cap? Should I wear one? How to comb and care for your wig? How to choose the right style and size breast form? How to wear breast forms without a bra? How to care for them? Can I sleep in them? All of these questions will be covered and many more.

Shortly after Esprit ends, Be-All begins in Chicago. This event runs from June 1-6 and attracts over 400 people.  I attended this conference last year as well. Like Esprit, I had a blast. Formed great relationships, kept busy with evening activities and had my vendor booth to keep me busy during the days. There are fun events throughout, including a pool party (bring your swimsuit!) and the Saturday Night Grand Banquet that is an absolute must for all attendees.

Like Esprit, I will be attending Be-All as a vendor and a teacher. I will be presenting one class (Breast Forms and Wigs 101) on Thursday June 3 from 3:30 to 4:50.

If you have a chance to attend these events, please stop by my vendor booth and say hi, or maybe come to one of my classes. I would love to meet you.
Have fun and be safe girls.


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